unbearable..

ugh...1 week had passed..
i've been keeping myself busy these whole week...
but...
NOTHING CHANGED
NOTHING COMES OUT FROM MY MIND
i've tried..but yet all this is just tiring me..
i study, i go for tuition, i stay back at school and came home late, i do my KGT, i do housechores, i stay up late at night so the next day i'll be sleepy and sleep longer and not to remember..
it doesn't help...tiring and yet useless...

having my parents around is a real headache...
whatever i do they'll be guarding..
no freedom at all..
it feels like being grounded...or worse than that..

what a pathetic life i've been living in..
nothing had gone right...
there's a good thing had happened to me last 4 months but now..
its crushed into pieces...
am i born to suffer all this?
am i born just to do houseworks and chores?
NO.

i know what u all will say..
forget bout it right?
get over it right?
all this is happening to me...
not you...ok?
its hard and i need time..alright?

wouldn't it be better if i'm a guy?
i don't need to suffer all this pain...

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear

to always get me through the day

and make it ok

I miss you