bleh.

i know i had been using words that end with "eh" behind.

i really have no idea for a nice title name D:

results had been coming out a few weeks ago. maybe a month ago.

and oh yeah~ i failed most of them -.-

the only papers that i didn't fail are bio, bm, english, modern maths and civic.

I've started physics tuition already. Was okay i think. Hoping to go for chem tuition soon.

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enough talking bout school. lets talk about craps that happen to me :D

okay so....i've been a little aggressive these days. Maybe just too perasan.

someone had started to freak me out these days with those...stupid acts?

IT REALLY SCARED ME OFF OKAY?! i'm avoiding him.

friends had been teasing me a lot and I DON'T LIKE IT. hmph :(

forget bout the guy. lets move on.

many people asked me, "why are you not wearing your contacts anymore?"

- i'll only be wearing contacts during mondays, fridays and maybe thursdays.

- why am i not wearing during tuesday and wednesday?

its cause i'm most sleepy at these 2 days. And i'll sleep in the car.

Oh and LOL. Shakthy got nagged by our moral teacher today :D

random question of the day :

Shakthy : does Juan Lee really likes grabbing boys ass?

Me : HAHAHAHAHA do you think i know?

random statement of the day :

A : B likes someone la not me. I'm not going to tell who B likes cause i promised.

Me : Since i'm not going to know who B likes, that means i can still say B likes you :D

A : *speechless*

Me : ;D

April Fool's tomorrow. Gonna kena people teruk teruk >:D

Not to forget, Christ's 1st anniversary for going back with the Lord.

rest in peace.

God blessed you.

when you're gone.

Err...hey there?

I'll start on with my eyes.

Yesterday went for eye check...and guess what? My eye power had rised to 500!!

Gosh...that was scary...

I'm thinking of wearing contacts as it can correct the vision (most people say that)

But my mom...she wouldn't let la..

say will go blind la, eye will pain la, and lazy people like me *cough* not suitable to wear them as need to clean them blablabla...=.="

So i'm thinking to go for work after PMR.

My salaries might go to.....

- new handphone

- shopping

- contacts

- watch

depends on how much i got...but oh well, 15 is hard to find a job.

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And Angie, if you're reading this (below)...reply in my cbox okay?

Remember to help me get the t-shirts from ice before he shift to Australia...

If you didn't...i wonder when could i get those back =.="

Please and thanks..

(p/s: from now on...song titles will be my posts titles (if i could think of any that suits my mood)

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The eye power of mine is increasing too

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

a love story. (sad one)

I can't believe it that i actually had cried while watching this.

I think of something which had linked to this.

And yes, its a flashback of our memories.

i watch this doesn't mean i still play Maple Story.

I think God really loved him.

Much more than I do.

So He took him away to be with Him.

love is like fairytale.

agree? 

Why is it forbidden when you had found your another half?

Why is it so far away the distance?

And worst of all, SEPARATED FOREVER...

No matter how hard i tried or whatever i do, its still the same.

It never make any difference.

All i did was that stupid crying.

I know crying is useless. (except for hui min who enjoyed it so much)

Reality remains reality.

I've been reading those messages again and again.

Can't stop the tears.

Add up with the song from my blog.

Even more sad.

Night too...

recalling the pasts and compare it with now.

a huge big difference. And now there's a blank in my life.

He made me believe that love does exist.

But now since he's gone...all i have is just memories.

I really do wish that he swims out of the ocean where his ashes were and come back alive.

I know...i'm not suppose to have these stupid thoughts.

I don't wanna be called emo.

Someone cheer me up =(

People always say that love is like magic.

But isn't magic just an illusion?

stress.

whoa..i didn't know that i even have readers from singapore XD 

thanks for dropping by! =D

though its holiday, i can't feel it *banging the table like a mad woman* T_T

why so many homeworks?? *sigh*

Let us Form 3 relax a bit before PMR comes will die ar? 

so many government exams...for what? 

I mean, PMR wasn't as important as SPM.

Exam = more trees been cut off to make papers 

more trees been cut off to make papers = trees become lesser

trees become lesser = global warming

This even cause effect to the earth we are living in! 

Earth won't be saved if this continues...*sighs*

Lol..don't know why i sounded like a politician xD

Well...though its truth, i'm very sure PMR won't be canceled because of what I say.

Hui min i thought you say PMR will be canceled?? What happened??

Argh...finally i'm done with my science. 

History's waiting for me now...gotta go start nerding again.

(p/s : i've been playing restaurant city in facebook, the way they poop/pee made me LOL. They poop in public xD)

I had been crying every night.

Hoping for you to come back.

Thinking it will never happen

Because you're in heaven.

I woke up with my eyes sore.

Hoping you were just beside me.

Rubbing my tears away.

And give me a huge embrace.

This is my only wish.

A wish that will never come true.

God, would you let a miracle happen?

I'll still pray even if it wouldn't...

i dunno

Hello!! This is Hui Min. I'm blogging from the school. I miss Christ too!! but omega half-bolied ah tan miss him more. Ah tan: I'm sorry....... (the everything below this is none of my business. don't misunderstand. I'm innocent)


someone : I HATE EMMA I HATE EMMA I HATE EMMA

I PITY THOSE WHO HAVE THE SAME NAME AS HER

STUPID STUPID STUPID

E.T.A.H.

EMMA THE ANOREXIC HAG

GOSH

CAN'T SHE JUST DIE

I WANT TO HIRE SHALINI AS MY ASSASSIN :P

SHALINI, ENJOY YOURSELF.

TORTURE HER MAN, TORTURE HER :P

BE LIKE SWEENEY TODD

MINCE HER BODY AND MAKE PIES

GIVE THE PIES TO HER FAMILY

OH YEAH AND STUFF THEM UP HER BLOODY NOSE



I LOVE YOU WEI LIANG!!!(SECRET ADMIRER)


quote : if somebody sucks, you FUCK!! (from pn.siti mariam) :P




you know what. i'm not done yet.

i hate emma. i hate emma. i hate emma.
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so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much!


what's her problem

maybe everyone is her problem

stupid stupid stupid imbecile

ugh i hate her

she think she's a princess is it?

princess of shit la

can i slap her? please?

can i throw her into a deep, dark pit

then fill the pit with oil and open bunsen burners

then throw a match inside

THEN BOOM!

hah! she's gone.

the debris and remnants of her?

i'll post it to her friends

gosh i'm being blinded by hatred whenever i think about her

i actually don't feel angry

i just hate her :P


(NOTE FROM THE OWNER : THIS IS NOT WRITTEN BY ME.)

unbearable

oh god...i can't stand this feeling...
i really really missed him so much.
although its already 1 month...
i still can't stand it...

i read again the note he gave me..
felt really bad and sorry..
he did a lot for me but yet i did nothing..
and the worst thing is, i blamed him for everything.

i really regret.
i'm sorry.


angie, must take care of yourself properly.
be careful...
i'm very sure that the fall had been pain enough and brought effect to you...
shit that cockroach that make you fall..
hopefully it doesn't bring any injuries to your bone (i'm not cursing)
if the pain still continues...go for a check ok?
听大嫂的话...F3

100th post

well...this is my 100th post...
nothing to write much here.

Today marks the day when Christ had left to heaven for 1 month.
Missed him so much and so does his sister and friends.
Many people send their regards to him through me..
Including those maplers whom we both know.
Christ, they said rest in peace with God.

I'm all by myself now.
I'm sorry for can't achieve the 7A's you wanted for this exam.
This was our deal but its ruined by me.
Sorry...I admit I'm stupid.
I failed for Maths and got a terrible pathetic results for Science.
Sorry to make you disappointed.
I promise I'll do my best in this coming diagnostic exam.
For you I'll give my best shot.
please bless me from heaven.

watch over me...

sometimes when i look at the sky...i was wondering if you were watching over me in heaven...

Were you somewhere here?

Or here?

I miss you so badly...you know that?

a small piece of my memories...

Christ...do you still remember all these?

The way you proposed to me through mega..

our wedding in maple...

The christmas tree you decorated with my char name on it..

The way your char smiles..

I had actually made a video on our wedding..guess you knew it..you were supposed to be the first one to view it but now...you were just gone..

I'm sorry for not sending the video to you earlier...sorry..

he's gone...

on 1st of april..April Fool's day happened the worst joke in my life...
The one i loved so much had left this world to heaven with god...
He just passed away...
And after 2 weeks..only i found out...
I had been such a bad person...
Talking bout bad things of him in my blog..though the post i've deleted few days after its written..i still can't forgive myself...

I'm sorry...I'm so sorry, Christ..
Now that you had left to a better place..who's going to accompany me throughout my life?
I can't really find such guy like you...you're just special..
Guess you really can't make it during the heart attack...
I can't beg to God and ask Him to bring you back to life..
I'm just lost and hopeless now..
I'm sorry for what I had did..those pain that had caused so much to you...
I'm sorry..

On my birthday..you wanted to send me the shirt to me but i didn't gave you my address..
I can say that the shirt is just really nice..
You designed it and its specially made by you...
Its a pair..
Yours is black and mine is white...
but now...who's gonna wear the black one?
Would it be better if i burn it so you can wear that in heaven?
Its just so nice...you've drew it before and showed to me...
yours the black one with a small pink thumb print and a red ribbon on top..
and mine the white one with a bigger blue thumb print and a little black tie..
Guess you can't be back alive and wear it together..

Look..i admit i blame it on you on the very first place..
But after i know all the truths...i really feel bad for what i've done..
The pains...the scars...
Now you're gone forever...
Its too late for me to repay you...
I'll do what you want me to...
Study and succeed in life..
You'll be in heaven watching me won't you?
Like the deal we've made..
I'll aim for the straight A's you wanted..
I won't let you down...
I'll live my life and pray non-stop..

You had even wrote a last word or i can say a letter to me.
I really burst on into tears when i read it..
It feels like a sharp knife going through me..
You really know me well...but i don't know you well enough..
You made me hate you so i could forget you..
You had asked your sister and your best friend to take care of me..
But you had left to this peaceful place called heaven..
Everytime when i look back to our maple ss or even sms and msn message history..
I really can't stop the tears..
Even when i sleep i'm still crying..
I can't accept the facts that you were gone..
The one I loved had gone and he'll never come back..
You will still be in my heart eternally and forever..

I missed the moments when we were mapling together..
Those sms you send...all these memories wouldn't be forgotten..
Everyone here misses you...your sister..ice..and me..
These 112 days were the happiest days in my life...
I never regret knowing you and i'm lucky enough to be given the chance to know you...
It seems like you had suffered enough so thats why God takes you with Him..
I won't blame God..I feel thankful to Him too..
For letting me know you and been with you...
Ah...our memories..nice and beautiful ones...
I missed you really much..
ZS will always remain.

R.I.P Christ..

I love you.

God, thank you for giving me the chance to know him.

I really do appreciate this relationship.

Guess this were one of the obstacles me, his family and friends have to go through.

Please let him rest in peace by your side.

Amen.

unforgettable pasts

well...its hard to go through all these days without his accompany..
boring...and feeling lonely too...
i know he had his own reasons on why he did all this and hopefully i'm right..
kept asking me to forget and leave...

i'll give you time to think bout all this...
i'll give you time you want...
but don't ignore me please...

you will still be remained in my mind
like what you say, ZS forever
promise?